I have always been someone who has always moved to the beat of her own drums. I figured that because of my outgoing personality that I was somehow exempt from the pressures of society; like I could easily handle whatever was thrown my way.
For as long as I can remember, I have always told myself that I will take peace of mind above anything else in life. That was until I became a full time entrepreneur and my business said “Ain’t no peace bih!”
For the first time in my entire life, I am throwing my whole self into perfecting my work and growing my business. In the past, I’ve always been (at best) a mediocre employee. Mostly because I always knew in my heart of hearts that I would work for myself.
Now that my vision has manifested and I am solely responsible for my business, it has activated and demanded a new level up of Shayla Janel.
It has unleashed the workaholic in me and also the girl who never feels like it’s enough. I’m so focused on the future that I’ve left myself in the dust. Especially, since recently moving, I have kicked myself into over drive because…you know…I’m trying to secure the bag. I’m trying to get to these millions, build an empire and have a legacy. Right?
Until one day I looked up and saw myself run tf down. I spent all of last week stuck in my bed, burnt out! My body finally said, “Nah sis. It’s time to rest and reset.”
The Level Up REQUIRES Your Peace
It’s always in those times of pressure where I really can hear God’s voice. I’m reminded to take care of myself and to leave room for the unimaginable. There are some places that only God’s favor can give me access to. And a reminder that no matter how hard I work, He is directing my next steps.
Above all, I’ve heard God say loud and clear to take care of myself. I’m praying for business growth, love and a family. But there’s no way I will be equipped for my desires if I don’t find balance.
I recently came into awareness that the biggest issue is my current idea of success doesn’t belong to me; that I’ve been measuring success through the lens of society.
When my goal from the very beginning has always been to master peace over pressure.
I’m returning back to the girl who moves to her own rhythm.
I’m making my own rules.
I’m pursuing things that make me happy and my heart full. Things that inspire me, such as, giving back to the community, traveling and just doing hood rat shit with my friends.
Over a year ago, I wrote on my mirror, “GO HARDER: Goal 1,000,000.” I’ve now erased it to say, “GO WITH THE FLOW: MASTER YOUR PEACE.” You only get to do this life thing once.
It’s too short to live under the false pressures that weren’t designed for our happiness.
Frankly, I don’t want success at the cost of my peace of mind. I’m slowly but surely figuring out my work/life balance; Remembering to breathe, pray, and hit reset. So if you have been overwhelmed and over worked, know this: Peace is truly the ultimate bag to secure within yourself.